If you ask anyone who knows me, they will tell you that I talk a lot. You will think that I hate to be on my own but I don’t. I like to have a quiet time to regroup, think about random things and stories that go through my mind. I love reading books, I can keep myself busy.I rarely feel alone but a week or so ago, I felt it. I was overwhelmed, lonely, afraid, sorry for myself, feeling abandoned, hating the feeling that I needed to speak to a friend or a family member or anyone just not to feel alone. Not that they mind. I am blessed to have friends and family. I was upset. I wasn’t really on my own physically but in my head I was. The worse thing was that I knew that there was nothing anyone could do for me. I hate being dependant.
Then today I had that wow moment, something occurred to me: I needed God again, to spend more time in prayer, reading the Word, listening to the Word. I had lost track you see, I forgot for a moment that the Lord said “… He will never leave me, nor forsake me” (Deut 31:6). Great things happened to people in the Bible when they were alone with God: Moses and the burning bush, Jacob fought with an angel and his name was changed, Jesus spent time alone to speak with God.
And suddenly feeling alone is not that bad at all. Being alone is OK, as long as I am alone with God. So I am going to embrace this time and learn more about God and me. We are great together!
MoiWinu 